The One Who Passed One Great Trip Around The Sun

Another trip around the sun has passed, once again. So many things happened in the last one year. But the most thing to be grateful is that I finally reached that so called turning point along the way. Well, after so many false (or maybe we should call it a minor) turning point, I guess this one is really the one turning point that completely change my direction on how to live this life.

With maybe so many grammatical error I’d be making on this writing, I’m gonna try to tell you how this previous trip turned my life around, here.

A year ago, started with a rough birthday with the old me still trying to fight the feeling knowing my heart would have broken again. A feeling I used to have when I was with him and always happened to be true. And it was proven true once again in the next couple days. So then I said goodbye to the what have become my obsession for these past years. And this time, because I had enough way too much, it was for good.

How cliché it might sound, I got my turning point over a romantic reason. After that day, I found that the only way to have a real happiness is to be happy on your own, not by finally getting your obsession. That was something people always said, right? To be happy on your own? To control your own happiness by detaching it on something/someone except yourself and what you can do? Well, I myself read it often somewhere somehow but I’d never finally do that until this point.

Funny is, along the way to take control my own happiness, I found another life’s treasure. It was just like the path that I, as a human, was born to take and to walk to understand what life really is. Oh, so deep it becomes unbelievable I know, but please bear to hear this story until the end.

At first, number one, I found that in order to have and to keep my own happiness I need my milestones, my checking point to keep my life from the let-it-flow (yeah, let it flow like water while water is always flowing to the downside). A list from What-You-Can-Do to make your life fulfilled. 

What you can do is the keyword. It must be something that you and only you that could make it happens. Miles to travel, places to see, things to buy, tasks to wrap up, a job you can be happy to spend the days with, a good career, people you want to give some happiness, things to know, things to understand, things to share. I kept and still keep making list after list and checking it everyday to find that I always have something to be grateful of. So I can close the day with peace and happiness within. 

After making list of my milestones, number two, I found the most important milestone to do in order to all the lists. To discover the only most important thing-myself. Discovering who I am by knowning what I love, why am I doing what I am doing now, how I become the one I am now, and what kind of person do I want to be.

I found another treasure in this phase, to discover youself means you’d be able to control your negative side and also able to accept something you don’t like and make peace by agree to disagree. For example, I discovered myself that I am a natural born judgmental bitch who can judge anything anyone anywhere anytime, but I also don’t wanna be the person who hurts people who didn’t do anything to me. So then I knew I have to keep it to myself for I know that when I share my judgment (which is not always true), I can hurt some people along the way. That scores for controlling the negative side. And then because my judgment of people, I found that everyone is unique for what they choose to be, and it’s okay because at the end people will get along with people with similar choices naturally, so why bother to force your choice to others which is different, why bother to force what comes naturally, why bother to force the universe? And that scores for make peace by agree to disagree.

And at last, after the milestones and myself, I found that happiness, eventhough it is in your hand, there is one thing that will help a lot on getting it. It’s surrounding yourself with positive people. Why? Because positive and constructive people will help you to understand the number one and number two and maybe help you to achieve it. While destructive people are just gonna make you forget your number one and number two by drowning you into their negativity and then turning you into one of them.

So yeah, that’s all my treasure I found on my previous trip which makes me feel so much better than I was a year ago. And I can’t wait to find another treasures on my next trip around the sun, starting today.

Well, I hope this one is gonna be another hell of fun and great journey too!

-D